Mehr Licht? (もっと光を?)

More Light?

2021

sound installation, 25 min 55 sec
Ventilation fan, light bulbs, IPod, headphones

“薬を飲んでいる時は本当の私ではない”と話す、ある統合失調症の方の両極の日常についての語り。
換気扇から漏れた光を眼前に受けながら、ヘッドホンで声を聞くサウンドインスタレーション。

彼女は外側から与えられる社会的役割をこなすことで常人に収まりながら、内側に沸き起こるエネルギーの表出先を探し求め、自由や解放を渇望しながらも、それを行動に移した瞬間に問題になってしまう。パートナーや担当医の目を十分に理解しているからこそ、自分らしさを抑えて病人としてわきまえてしまう、そのジレンマが語りの端々に滲む。

A schizophrenic who says, "When I'm on medication, I'm not really me." A narration of a schizophrenic's bi-polar daily life.

A sound installation in which the visitor listens to voices through headphones while receiving light leaking from a ventilation fan in front of his eyes.

 

She fits in with the normal person by performing the social roles that are given to her from the outside, but searches for a place to express the energy that boils up inside, craving freedom and liberation, but the moment she acts on it, she becomes a problem. The dilemma of suppressing one's own identity and being known as an invalid because one is fully aware of the eyes of one's partner and one's doctor is blurred in the narration.